For seventeen years, my principle responsibility was Director of Family Services in a substance abuse facility. The experience shaped what I know about addiction. Addiction can be very difficult to understand. I want to use the next few blogs to talk about addiction. Why would someone take a poison, hoping to make things better, when it only makes things worse?
The word addiction comes from a Latin root meaning “to dictate?” This makes sense. When someone becomes addicted they are owned by their addiction. The addiction tells them what to do. The classical definition of addiction is: “slavery to a pernicious habit, especially that of certain drugs.”
However, I found that this information is relatively useless, when sitting across from a 10 year-old who wants to understand mommy’s behavior. I needed something more to help the child understand. In his/her mind, “if mommy loved me more,” she’d be able to stop. “Why isn’t my love for mommy enough?”
Addiction is not about logical behavior. Continuing to put a poison in your body, expecting things to get better, is not logical. Addiction is about feelings and emotion. People use drugs to feel better and they work. If you put a drug in your body, for some period of time, you may feel better, or at least you won’t feel your pain. Addiction is about feelings and sensation, not about being rational.
Therefore, using a kinesthetic (sensory experience) explanation captures the essence of addiction. I use two metaphors:
“When we ask your mommy to stop using drugs, it would be as if we asked you to stop breathing. Can you imagine what your first reaction would be? Are you crazy? I can’t get along without breathing. I need breathing to live. I couldn’t possibily stop breathing. That’s what it’s like when we ask your mother to stop using drugs. Inside she feels like she wouldn’t survive without using her drug. We know that isn’t true, but that’s what it feels like to her.”
The second example actually incorporates the horror of addiction. I tend to use this with older children:
“Imagine for a moment that I was to take your pinky and started bending it back. Imagine that I just kept bending it and bending it. After a while, the only thing you would be thinking about is how to stop this fool from bending your finger. You wouldn’t be thinking about your parents or your friends or your school work. The only thing you would be thinking about is how to stop the pain in that finger. That’s what it is like when your parent gets up in the morning and they are addicted. The addiction makes them uncomfortable and all they can think about is how to stop their pain. It isn’t that they don’t love you. They love you just as much as they ever did. But they can’t think of anything except how to stop their pain. The problem is that the only thing that will stop their pain, is more of the drug that caused them the pain. They go on using, day after day, in order to keep the pain away.”
If using more of the drug is what will make the pain go away, how does anyone ever get away from the drug. Recovery from addiction requires feeling the pain, facing the hurts you experience and you gave to others. Recovery forces the addict to stop running away and feel their hurts. That’s why it is avoided by so many addicts that never get recovery. The pain caused by the addiction is not as profound as the pain they experienced in their life and family.
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